Let's make a toast to my 1 year LAnniversary!
It's always crazy to think that I've come this far and the fact that I've set up back to back doctor appointments make it that much more real. Through all the highlights and prior misconceptions of what became an amazing year (filled with highs & tons of low blows), I couldn't have imagined that this is exactly how my year would play out. I've learned in a creative career, when to not to take things so personally but also when to take things personally - when it comes to your purpose, drive and vision.
It became a year of acceptance in myself and what is, that I'm in control of my attitude, thoughts and emotions.
The Beginning
Where most people see comfort and security accepting a job offer as a reason to relocate, I saw comfort in accepting a job... interview. I know, that's sorta crazy and my way of thinking at that time isn't for everyone, but I ultimately used this job prospect as an excuse to push myself to visit and get the feel of LA. I knew I was taking a huge leap of faith and had a gut feeling that nothing was guaranteed. Then eventually, the opportunity fell through.
I knew that with no job (and what was leftover of my savings) and just having moved to this huge city as a complete outsider, that I didn't have time to panic - I had to make moves. No sulking, no overthinking, no freaking out. I accepted what was and went straight to applying.
Rejection made me extremely motivated - I designed my own business cards, DM'd several companies through Instagram, went to sample sales to meet designers directly to introduce myself. I told myself I moved out here for a reason and I knew I wasn't going to fail.
Side note: Stressing out, though inevitable, has NEVER benefitted me in my experience. Each time I've put out any stressful energy on to myself or to others, it seems to bite me in the ass and trust me, I've learned the hard way.
The Career
My life's journey, 1992 to present.
Despite this ever so accurate (and lazy mock up) graph of my life, I worked my ass off. I made it happen.
It was a milestone year where I officially became a writer. I've always loved fashion ever since I was little and was basically writing/blogging about the things I loved throughout college but I never put the two and two together, that I can actually make money sharing fashion inspo that I love. I never set out to be a huge blogger/influencer but I learned very quickly from my mentors that words are powerful, that I have a strong point of view, and I'm willing to share it. Not only is writing my creative outlet at work, I also style, photograph, and assist at feature photoshoots.
What I do is so fulfilling but each day there are more reasons to keep getting better.
Real Friends, Love & the People I've Met
Misconception: Everyone is superficial.
I've recognized the friends that say they'll be there and actually show up. It's the people that still reach out, ask how you are and genuinely want to know - I appreciate you for that. Much to my surprise, I've met someone special and have gotten to know amazing people here that have welcomed me into their inner circles. I've also found an incredible work fam and work closely with hard working people that are genuine, talented, and make me feel so inspired.
The Balance
Strengthening your body is strengthening your mind, is strengthening your soul, and so forth. I do whatever physical activity like running or pilates, to help me escape any challenges I'm facing personally and professionally. Also, my body often surprises me. After Christmas vacation and overeating like one does on vacay, I came back with my ab muscles showing up more than usual. Then other days when I'm back on a healthier diet, I often ask myself, "Is this period bloat or did I just eat too much?" Still trying to figure this mystery out. 😛
In the past, I often had trouble checking out of work. Through a very stressful time to meet deadlines, I admittedly worked late at night to get things done without getting paid for it. Now, when I'm clocked out, I'm clocked out. I choose to focus on freeing myself mentally by making time for personal projects and to Facetime with my family often, which is extremely important to me.
The Meltdown
Misconception: The industry is cut throat.
If you think working in the fashion industry is anything like The Devil Wears Prada, there are some truths to this misconception. Though I'm grateful to have worked with inspirational people in the past, I did go through a tough period where I was constantly on my toes, stressing over the tiniest things, and getting yelled at upon coming into work in front of my coworkers. As if making coffee runs didn't make you feel like you were already at the bottom, all of it was a quick slap in the face to welcome me to the fashion industry.
When it became too stressful, I reached a breaking point. I remember sitting in a grocery store parking lot with tears pouring down my face while on the phone with my mom telling her everything was too much - I felt lost. She was saying I was putting too much pressure on myself and to just come home.
I already hated the fact that I was making her worried about me and hated the idea of coming home even more. I told her, "Going home is giving up." It wasn't an option for me. I changed my attitude and knew it was time to move on from that position, because it simply was not worth the mental and physical strain.
Home is Where the Heart Is
When I was living in my own Bay Area bubble, the thought of living in LA sounded dreadful. But if I didn't have these prior misconceptions about LA, I wouldn't have a reason to prove myself wrong and experience it for myself.
It was absolutely one of the best decisions I've made. In the end, what I've got now are two homes and I don't see anything wrong with that.
xo A